Thursday, April 28, 2005

congrats panthers!
yeah, i'm really glad Panther cheerleading won (: think all of u really deserved it! just feeling a sudden detachment from u all. don't wanna face this fucked up life. dunno why i'm so afraid of communication breakdown with u all just cuz cheerleading came to a stop for me. maybe it's just me. my life is just like crap now and i'm a piece of shit!! don't even know why i bothered motivating others when when i became down, i don't recieve the favour. what's the point? damn it, sorry if i ain't cut out to be as good as u tnk i am. even the best falls down sometimes. guess it ain't excusable for me.. why? i don't have a life, frankly. i'm just a tool. a fcking spoilt tool. ain't gonna cry cuz i'm emotionless. ain't gonna smile cuz there's nth happy to smile for. have been containing everything inside... why do you think i still do that? what the fuck.


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